F.E.A.R..

This is the 3rd week I get back to Malaysia. Counting down to 22 days to go back China alone again..OMG! I don't feel any excitement now when I think of staying with the Shanghai family alone, travelling to and fro alone, .... I'm afraid..

Tian xin will become afraid also. What I'm afraid is I might not be able to have any achievement during the internship. I'm afraid history will repeat and at the end, it's a waste. So negative now.

Sometimes, I feel that I'm losing myself. I don't know who I am, especially during this retirement period, waiting period, ..No clubmates, no classmates..Mom keeps on nagging. I'm really blurred all the time. I don't know what can I do.

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没有期待是那么的恐怖！