Settlement in Shanghai

Hi people, Tian Xin has finally arrived in Shanghai safely, meaning my "final exam" has ended at the moment mom left me this morning 8.30am.

Yup! It was expected!

Nagging, scolding, etc..

And, for me, FED UP -> BLURRED! @_@

I'm really fed up with the changing plans because of mom.

Fed up because the plans were the ones I proposed earlier but disapproved by her.

And, when we arrived in China, all the plans were carried out as she liked, just like what I proposed to her before!

FINE!

1st day in Shanghai, we visited Munchy's CEO, China Pavilion (Shanghai Expo), Shanghai Book City, Nanjing road...

The whole trip was by TAXI!!! -.-" Mom was accompanying me to settle down but we took taxi everywhere.How could I recognize the road? sigh..If it's Zhi, he'd surely accompany me to take bus everywhere so that I know the way! Following Mom is like travelling. This is not a real settlement!

Whatever, God bless me

Now, I'm being left alone to stay with the Shanghai family.

The Shanghai family is very ke qi. I guess Xia Xiang theories can be applied here very well.

They don't even let me to wash fruit plate!!! -.-" They keep on asking me nvr be ke qi. But, Tianxin's nvr keqi. I'm treating myself as at home, doing the house chores but they don't allow. -.-" Sigh..

wish everything goes smoothly soon!

Stressful "final paper"! (preparation to 2nd Journey to China)

Left 3 hours and I'll start a new life~

I wish it's a good beginning!

But, my feeling now is afraid, not excited.

The feeling is like sitting for final exam.

I'm feeling stressful now! I don't know why!

I guess it's because of MOM!

She's like the marker of the paper.

I'm like the student.

I need to do my "revision" by checking the details, like transport.

I need to prepare for the "essay" (planning for the whole trip to settlement in Shanghai).

As usual, I've no feeling until the last few hours, trying to ensure I miss nothing.

If mom nags, I fail.

I'm so scareddddd...

But, I should correct my attitude to previous time.

"When you've put your best, then you leave no regrets"

So, I've triple checked so many times. It should be ok!

"Die means die la!"

Sad Valentine

It's really a sad valentine that really makes me emo for whole day but it's nothing related to love relationship. Tian Xin has no feeling towards any love relationship. Perhaps, I've fell in love to STACT this time just like I fell in love to SF1 that time. To reduce such strong missing feeling, I made myself busy by being active in club activities. Yeah~ I made it after half year joining STACT. Now, I guess I need Pivot's job to reduce same feeling towards STACT. I really miss STACT so much!

It has been exactly 2years since I really started my "clubbing" life. I met Waihong,Kiet,Jack,Reegent, Sherine, Yatlei, CK, etc. 2 years and 1 day ago (Valentine's eve,2009). Today, pictures were flashing in my mind. OMG! It's making me even sadder. Even worse, I was alone at mom's office, doing boring work. The feeling is so strong today towards every single friend that I have made thru STACT. Sometimes, I even doubt myself whether I'm able to keep myself out of STACT clubbing life when I'm back to INTI later.

10 more days left in Malaysia and I'll start my busy life at Pivot soon,hopefully. God bless me!

Happy Valentine, everyone, especially Pris & Chyn woei!

had a nice chat w chen, my babysitter! =)

Non-stop Revision= lifelong mastering

Stupid TianXin!

She always stops her revision after exam.

She always scolds herself for mastering nothing.

She always blames it's because of her poor memory.

She envies people who can apply knowledge practically.

She feels guilty, sad, worried, disappointed, afraid, regretful, etc.

But, she does nothing!

Today, when she woke up, something just knocked into her mind!

She asked herself,"What do I don't know? What can I do?"

She recalled back that she used to plan her holiday nicely with learning of vocabs, at least.

But, after joining STACT, she didn't do that anymore because STACT had occupied her holiday.

She suddenly forgot what can she do during holiday.

No exam revisions needed, no study revision, no reports, no gatherings...

But, there's a need for lifelong learning.

She listed down what knowledge she has forgotten but important.

And, she prepares to do KNOWLEDGE REVISION...

She'll study back all the notes for econs, marketing....

Happy CNY! ;)

F.E.A.R..

This is the 3rd week I get back to Malaysia. Counting down to 22 days to go back China alone again..OMG! I don't feel any excitement now when I think of staying with the Shanghai family alone, travelling to and fro alone, .... I'm afraid..

Tian xin will become afraid also. What I'm afraid is I might not be able to have any achievement during the internship. I'm afraid history will repeat and at the end, it's a waste. So negative now.

Sometimes, I feel that I'm losing myself. I don't know who I am, especially during this retirement period, waiting period, ..No clubmates, no classmates..Mom keeps on nagging. I'm really blurred all the time. I don't know what can I do.

=(

没有期待是那么的恐怖！